Hey I did it! Two days in a row! :)
Well , well, well What am I gonna talk about?
I am at the library again... I think I am gonna use their computer more and more, their fast and fast access! It's better than AOL dial-up and home. I am also here cos I am advoiding home because my mom wants me to rake up the leaves and it's ....Damn cold out. Dad said that we were gonna do it, but no mom wants me to do it... Whatever.... So that's why I am here...
On the bus coming back from the clinic I was thinking what I really want/need right now is just a hug! (from a female(and not my mom!)) That's all just a decent hug! I was thinking about asking Nicolena, my t-doc, but I don't that she would do it because it probally not be professional... The next choice is Morgana, but I don't know... I don't know if I want to show that much emotions in front of her.. I don't know why I feel that way, but I do. Aside from those females I don't know any that I can ask. Man I really need to met others. If there is a female that is reading this and they live in CT, please let me know... PLEASE! :)
I am also kinda happy that I am finally coming to terms with my failed marriage with Erin. (Notice that I am not calling psychoslut!) I am starting to realize, and also come to terms that I was not perfect in the marriage. I know I wasn't but I also had a wholly than thou attitude about it, because I did ALL the cleaning, all the working (when I did), all the cooking, and basically everything else. Towards the end yes, I didn't want to go out. Because I was really depressed, and why did I get depressed, cos of the heroin, and the coke, that Erin brought in to the house, and then both of us got addicted! That's another thing that I held against her for years. I still do I guess. I think that is what ultimately killed our marriage. Because right before it our lives were getting better. We were selling a lot of Avon, I was not biting my nails, I was keeping better care of myself, and we were happy.... Or at least I thought we were.... Man, I really wish that Erin listened to me... I miss her! I miss her smell, her smile, her laugh, and her hugs!... Now I'm depressed! Next topic!
Well... What else.. Oh I got a msg from a person on myEmatch.com. So I wrote back.. I hope she aint from Russia... I have gotten about 5-8 messages from women in the USSR. I really hope she in the the USA, better yet Connecticut!
Oh yea, I almost from got! My optomistrst app yesterday. I have a new lazy eye, it came out of nowhere about a year and a half ago. Well at about 5 feet my dbl vision is about 2 feet away from each other. He said a word that scared me... Operation! Eek an operation on my eye! I don't want to accidentally be blinded in one eye! That would totally suck!, but someone told me that they knew this old person that had it don't and it went fine. But I am still scared!
Oh well.. I think it's time to finish this off and get my ass home I am getting hungry!
Lates!
I am at the library again... I think I am gonna use their computer more and more, their fast and fast access! It's better than AOL dial-up and home. I am also here cos I am advoiding home because my mom wants me to rake up the leaves and it's ....Damn cold out. Dad said that we were gonna do it, but no mom wants me to do it... Whatever.... So that's why I am here...
On the bus coming back from the clinic I was thinking what I really want/need right now is just a hug! (from a female(and not my mom!)) That's all just a decent hug! I was thinking about asking Nicolena, my t-doc, but I don't that she would do it because it probally not be professional... The next choice is Morgana, but I don't know... I don't know if I want to show that much emotions in front of her.. I don't know why I feel that way, but I do. Aside from those females I don't know any that I can ask. Man I really need to met others. If there is a female that is reading this and they live in CT, please let me know... PLEASE! :)
I am also kinda happy that I am finally coming to terms with my failed marriage with Erin. (Notice that I am not calling psychoslut!) I am starting to realize, and also come to terms that I was not perfect in the marriage. I know I wasn't but I also had a wholly than thou attitude about it, because I did ALL the cleaning, all the working (when I did), all the cooking, and basically everything else. Towards the end yes, I didn't want to go out. Because I was really depressed, and why did I get depressed, cos of the heroin, and the coke, that Erin brought in to the house, and then both of us got addicted! That's another thing that I held against her for years. I still do I guess. I think that is what ultimately killed our marriage. Because right before it our lives were getting better. We were selling a lot of Avon, I was not biting my nails, I was keeping better care of myself, and we were happy.... Or at least I thought we were.... Man, I really wish that Erin listened to me... I miss her! I miss her smell, her smile, her laugh, and her hugs!... Now I'm depressed! Next topic!
Well... What else.. Oh I got a msg from a person on myEmatch.com. So I wrote back.. I hope she aint from Russia... I have gotten about 5-8 messages from women in the USSR. I really hope she in the the USA, better yet Connecticut!
Oh yea, I almost from got! My optomistrst app yesterday. I have a new lazy eye, it came out of nowhere about a year and a half ago. Well at about 5 feet my dbl vision is about 2 feet away from each other. He said a word that scared me... Operation! Eek an operation on my eye! I don't want to accidentally be blinded in one eye! That would totally suck!, but someone told me that they knew this old person that had it don't and it went fine. But I am still scared!
Oh well.. I think it's time to finish this off and get my ass home I am getting hungry!
Lates!
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