I hope everyone had a good and safe xmas!

Mine was ok...We went to my oldest best friend, whom she's knowen since HS. She lived in Deer hills, NY. It was butt-cold.. And it still is out here! I enjoyed myself, I actually had 2 run & cokes, and I enjoyed both of them very much. (I usually don't drink anymore). There was the girl there, I forgot her name, but she was a large gal and she dressed like Erin! I I was almost staring at her most of the night, and Dede(our hostess) sat me next to her. Even before then I have been missing Erin. I am almost tempted to call her and see if she will answer, I don't know why all of sudden I am really missing her, but I am. I called her grandma xmas eve, and I talked to Nana, Josh (Erin's cousin who is in the navy, we got along well), Lehera(Erin's other cousin in which holds a hold grudge against her), and Erin's mom. I got to wish then a merry xmas and I told them that I messed being there on xmas eve, which I did!

Next topic!

I personally have been doing ok, barely I have been dipping in to daily depressions like 2-4 times a week. I guess I have a lot of unresovled things that I need to deal with.Oh also I need to get my divorce from Erin and finally make it final.

I am gonna go cos I slipped down the stairs, and fucked up my elbow, and it's starting to really hurt!

Lates!