Well my meds got changed!

Basically, I am not longer taking risperdal, and lithium when I wake-up, but I am still taking 1 mg of Risperdal at night, but now I got Time released Lithium 450mg. I was taking 1 300mg 2 times a day, so this is actually a decrease! So hopefully I will not be a lethargic or depressed! I am also still taking my Welbrutin.

Well I got my pumpkin yesterday, this will be the first pumpkin I will carve since 1995! I am looking forward to it. I haven't figured out what type of face I want to do I want to do a psychotic look... But I don't know...I am gonna do some test drawing and see what I can think of.. If anyone knows of any sites that has jack-o-lanterns so I can see the designs, please leave a comment!

So what else is going on... I'm watching High Fidelity on Comedy Central. I am gonna go and work on my Linux.

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Man, Life sucks!

Well, I am just tired of living with my mother. At every turn she makes me feel like shit. But in this case I was wrong, but I think that she enjoys belittle me. This time it was about me cleaning, and me acting depressed withch, "Makes her depressed too." I actually understand that, but it's her deliviery of it. She made me feel so much like shit that I actually thought about suicide! I really need to get out of "HER HOUSE". I am even considering going to some kind of group type home, or something. I am also suppose to get getting on disability, but I think I NEED to work so I can get my ass away from my trigger, she has always been my trigger. Ever ssince I was 12 she never got along. It's not like I haven't tried to be nice, but you can get kicked in the ass so many times until you stop being nice, and start being real.

well other shit in my life...

I finally got my own linux book. I got Red Hat Linux Bible: Fedora and Enterprise Edition by Christopher Negus it came with a copy of Fedora Core 1, It the free version of Red Hat Linux. Well I got it installed. I am such a newbee, I can't even see to get any non-rpm software installed! But I did patch the kernel to support NTFS! Hey it was an accomplishment for me! So I have it dual boot on my Dell laptop. So I am learning it. slowly. I think I am gonna borrow Linux Power tools from the Library.

Well that's all I can think of as of now. I will try again to update this more often again!

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