Sorry it's been awhile

I can't say I've been busy, just doing other things! Like I am no longer depressed! Yep, finally after 3+ years, but I am still not 100% mentally.... Thanx mom! No matter how much I do I either did it wrong, not enough, or I did it when I should have done something else! After I presented her with $180.00 I got yelled at cos I spend 70 bux I got from another job on ME! It's the first time I bought myself something since I left Ms. Slut!

Whatever, No matter what I do I am wrong!

Well, in therapy, my dad is suppose to go with me one week and he has not, He has been busy, or at least mother has kept busy(Not in a good way!). I not have new meds! I am on Rispardal, and not LITHIUM! Yes! Lithium, Who here thought it was a metal?!?! I did, and I was wrong, it is a salt. Batteries powered by salt!? Whatever... So Needless to say This lithium make be drag my feet, I am always tired, like the other day I almost missed my stop when I feel asleep on the bus! But thank god no other side effects... Yet. Oh and they somewhat keep me in the middle of the road, not happy, not sad, just blah! Every so ofter I will get hyper, but I have always been hyper.

Well I will try to update every day again!

lates!

Last Night was a good night!

I finally got out of the house and went to a club with my only friend here in Ct, Morgana. She brought me to this club in Hartford, I forgot the name of it. They only do this club once a month. They played some Goth and lots of Industrial! So I felt like I was home. This is where I use to hang out at before I met my soon-to-be ex. Also this was my first time out since I left her! Man it did wonders for my mental state! I am actually happy, and it has lasted since last night!!! It's is nice to be happy. As in my mood chart -3 is severe depression, +3 being super manic, and 0 (Zero) being baseline(Normal) I conceder I was 1 -2 last week, and now I would say I am a +1!!!! So I am in a damn good mood! Even though my mother has not stopped giving me shit. I know she is trying to destroy my good mood I will not let her! Well, I'm tired I think I am gonna take a nap.

Lates!
joe...

Welcome!

Greetings new visitors!

As you can see I got the Bi-polar Blog Ring up and running! As of right now I only have 3 site, but I expect more to join up once other get the concept of it.

I also have another blog with my poems, there is only one for now but I will try to post another one today! That URL is joepoems.blogspot.com .

Well the last few days has been ok. I have a few disspapoints yesterday
1. My first paycheck did not come yet (My first one since I got fired cos I was on heroin!(but I am sober now :) )
2. I tried to make it to get my disability started but the "D" bus didn't show up on time (actually 3 didn't show up in the course 45 minutes. But one finally came by about 30 minutes before they close for the 3 day weekend!
3. I have been waiting for this new friend of mine to pick me up so I can escape this house.

So After these disappointments I went and get myself some ice cream! I felt better.

Well I will try to add to this tonight. I will be getting back to updating it nightly now that I get the ring going!

Lates!
Joe M.